writing

i believe i associate writing with clouds...however i like clouds.

so...i do not like writing these essays anymore. they annoy me. there is no grounds for them. + on top of everything they dont lead anywhere. i was just thinking ...sure the lectures may be interesting but...studing this for life. i dont see the point of it.

there is no ultimate great explosion of amazing-ness in studing such things, is there?

i will finish this semester then change my subjects.

my subjects as they stand are: literature, theology, philosophy, history

two out of four are good
one is painful
one is meh

meh is next to good
painful is one away from good
meh is one away from good
this doesnt work well with only four.

btw still working on the presentation of blog

Apocalypse

some people are so sub-standard. i take the train to uni and back and what do i hear.

i heard that a group of girls got bashed up by guys and a shopping trolley thrown at them...i mean ...serioulsy??

next day

i hear that some more idiots get their cars bashed up and bash into other's cars...i mean... seriously???

next day

i hear some guy goes like 200 in a wildlife area and hits a deer and kills it!!...seriously!?

next day

i see in a park with my own eyes a needle...i mean...

this is ridiculous...one thing plc was good for was keeping us away from this. where is our happy bubble gone!! As i see it, this is not our world, this is a waste. We must better ourselves people, so that we can honestly believe that these things do not happen.

long term goals.
better grades => better uni => better job => better career => better suburb => better life. and perhaps after that better leadership*

i will endeavour not to hear these things any longer but..it is hard.

*leadership=dictatorship by me, but i'd settle for an oligarchy made of us

Lunch

I had a relisation today. i miss our group lunches! really miss them!! i mean now...i eat lunch...or i don't ...and its expensive eating in the city...and i would feel weird if i brought stuff to uni...i really miss our mass group lunch.

ive been to gi gi japanese place along swanston which has good grass jelly drink

a random place with steph which was average

a fish palace...place which was good

people we must have lunch together. So if you have times from twelve to three on certain days tell me...

okay im gonna go have pratas and ocra curry for dinner now i should learn how to spell that ....meh...

btw update on game...have not played again...due to no chance without looking like a weirdo staring at strangers.

34 in adelaide

We begin uni.
The photo above is of Katherine's uni attire in Adelaide. I personally think she will be hot. but it is a lot better than what i've been wearing. i've literally worn jeans and a tee-shirt everyday...i wore the two pairs i got in year four with a number of tee-shirts...you see when i go overseas or interstate ...or anywhere for that matter i like to get tee-shirts...practical and a momento.

[so .hong kong, singapore, paris, scotland, london, rspca, a computer one with binary code on it, manifest, a really old one from year five, two from dubai, another anime one, one from india, i have one from new york though i havent been, ...well as you can see i have a lot of teeshirts...these are just the baggy ones...you know not the tight ones. i have those too they are...revealing so i dont wear them as much.]

i think i've been looking like a hobo...but...i dont want to stand out that would be weird...though i think i do stand out cause no one else dresses in jeans and tee-shirt...unless they are male. how sad. i mean it would be nice to wear something nicer...but...then i would look nicer...i cbf looking nicer...uni is equivalent to school. this is such a dilemma. skrew self expression we should have a uniform.

so i had my first lecture tute combo today and yesterday. it was good. the content sounds really interesting i was actually considering reading ahead! this from a girl that doesnt like reading. i mean its so painful...i can read fast...but i generally read so that i can sound out and put expression into the words in my head. its...a habit...i dont know why.

i developed a new game its called observing people on the train. as opposed to from the bus window. its quite inventive. no it's not actually. and its kinda akward if someone catches you looking at them a number of times...

okay so what you do is you get on the train. then you sit down and find a number of seats which you wish to observe eg. four, five rows. and you watch. and wait. until someone gets off. and you try to guess who is going to get off!! its quite rewarding. first round i got one out of three the next few i didnt get any and then teh last round i got three out of three!! Some people are really big signposters they like fold their newspapers the stop beforhand...but some are strange and fold it two stops before!! tricky! some move their head. but i saw two guys who put their hand on the back of their necks. one female moved her hand from her lap to the seat. anyway it was really interesting?...cute?...amusing. yes amusing. cause the time just speeds past when you wait for people to get off the train!

hopefully...

i have something interesting to say...well. so i had this orientation week...and steph signed me up for my student union thing. but i got a keyring. and i have a diary now . good. i have two. good-er.

My room is soo messy!!! i have to tidy it.. i cant even stand being in it myself...but ..i am procrastinating. like...where the hell do i put all this stuff...and hanging up clothes...cbf! pain! drawers...help! i have an overflowing washing basket in my room cause i couldnt be bothered to put them away before...now its like doing hurdles to my window. PAIN... yes i am lazy.

i have a dilemma ...what books to use for uni?
i mean i like looseleaf...but i dont know.
i will figure it out. the english course sounds good. theme of strangeness.or ..something...history sounds scary ...philosophy sounds....sleepy..O.o...like thoughtful sleepy. and theology i know nothing about...we shall see...c...seeeee....

overall i am hopefull for this year. i shall aspire to some good marks. HD. High Definition here i come. *sigh* bad pun.

batter

is what i am eating at the moment!! it is surprisingly nice!! previously i was about to put them into the muffin maker -like an oven- having forgot to put in sugar. i have a problem with instructions ...>.<...but this time the instructions were vague. they had sugar in the ingredients but not in the method. oh no!!!..gosh...gosh .wth!! anyway once it had been mixed in...and it was a whole bloody cup!!...once it was mixed in it started to taste really nice!! it is a passionfruit and raspberry cake...i dont know what is up with it but its gooey on the inside and brown on the outside ...but nice. i gonna go check on the last three now...still gooey...

so i was talking with ying about a much needed obsession. her advice was to write a story. so as i was walking puppy i started one in my head. it was only a paragraph long...but i only remember the first sentence and last general drift...having changed it a number of times in my head. that is what they should do!!! they should write a book then for the second print write it all over again!! how exciting would that be!!!!! same but different...O.O or even better!!

paragraph by paragraph! okay so write three paragraphs on the same idea that are the same but 'revised' then three different books appear. generally the same but different. you could say that that already happens and they publish the best, i guess. but its not the same. the sentence isnt the same the structure isnt the same thus the picture isnt the same...i should think on this more...the concept of 'better' is not fitting in with my idea.

What is this...

Seriously ... i need an obsession!

I keep thinking how utterly pointless shopping is and sleeping and even anime thesedays...its just not gripping! im so not enthralled...just bloody meandering...gah!...i have a nice new pair of earings though...they jingle...^^

im eating sultanas out of a cup...they are addictive...my puppy likes them too. i have brown nail polish on now next week will be orange.

we went to costco...everything is big there...we got a big bottle of jelly belly jellybeans...^^ so ive been entertaining myself in trying to make the recipes from sites online...but...its so damn hard to tell between cinnamon and cherry.

everything from school i didn't care about...has fallen by the wayside...bye bye wayside...yes you should say fallen with a pitch inflection...it sounds better.

i want to go to the beach...i want a pirate ship...i like the colour green...atm i'm telling Wong my favourite colour so i decided to include it here. i tried to feed my puppy...she doesn't want her fish/veggie balls.

Oh no. i just had the most horrendous thought! do i crave structure!?...do i need school...disgusting. No. what i need is to grow up...and hurry to where i want to be...and damn well find an obsession!!!