'you h-issed your m-istory lesson today'

Should we look into the past or into the future?
I guess if i used tarot cards i could do both right!
Actually i watched the first few episodes of Carnivale on tv. i found it quite good.
i keep staring at this photo frame Dong gave me. its so pretty. i haven't put a photo in it but...she wrote a message on the paper inside so...that's as good right!

my room contains tonnes of trinkets...utterly useless stuff...yet my room seems only cluttered with the useful things.

i think wearing hats limits my vision. so when i was a kid i hated wearing hats.
i also think listening to an ipod on the train is a very strange thing to do cause i can't hear what is around me. i read my book. i finished the narratives by C.S Lewis. really good!! thanks Voonie! i really liked the last one. im now reading The Silmarillion. its been a number of years since i've read something not on the reader apart from comics of course. which now, i still have quite a few unopened on my shelf...not for now i guess. im sure there'll be a time for it.

its 20 10 this year.

eudaimonia

i feel so awake. i actually did stuff today. i woke up at eight and studied philosophy on the train, went to uni, reading the Silmarillion on the train back, drove home with my L-plates...soo embarrassing, played with aesa, had lunch, napped ^^, went to swimming, took puppy to the park, came home, did a sudoku, had dinner, and here i am now.

Though to many this is not much. But its more than i usually do, i believe now my thoughts are in the foreground, probs B-brainwaves!! ^^

gosh...do you ever feel your reality has warped?
I like this line i had to include it. i like the word pairing of reality and warped. ^^. i just came up with a really good example. you know the matrix...well, that should be a stupid question. well you know when he has deja vu with the black cat, and he is like oh...strange...whatever and then everyone else is like O.O OH NO!!. thats what i mean. likes...we know it happens but...there is just that inkling that something odd is in play....and if someone were to say some such thing, your heart would miss a beat.

I have a Philosophy Quiz tomorrow. btw i got a DI for my first English piece, happiness!!

Calenders

DATE: 2032 JULY 12th MONDAY

Today we went flying. We went to the moon, it took too long to get there. I wish they would shorten the trip. We continued to build our sandcastles, next time we go we are going to add a roof to the turret. I wish they would get the bio-engineered atmosphere sorted then the lakes would unfreeze. Anyhow, i guess they don't have Internet yet so what is the point? Plus...if they unfroze the lake...our sandcastle would disappear. We drew a smiley face in the sand and continued to make footprints. It was worth skipping work. These damn scientists get to go to the moon all the time...sure they complain about being so far away...and the silly dilemmas of...air and whatnot...but its cool...I'm sure the work is boring...but its cool!! I was never good at science...okay i was good...but hated studying...and it troubles me to this day cause i never gave it a fair go. I guess studying was preferrable to work though i would not go back even a day. The task is to figure out what to do with Tuesday the 13th of July. Should i go back to my desk only to listen to mind-numbing conversations? Do i really need the meagre amount of money? What else do i want to do?

I have a 40 years calender. I like it very much. Today's month April 2010 corresponds to July 2032, as in it has the same dates on the days of the week. Thanks to being slightly preoccupied by sci-fi [thanks Voonie, i really needed another distraction -.-] it occured to me that twenty years down the track that i would have even more options than today. But to choose an option...i would have to ask the same question. This is troublesome...VERY troublesome...where is my divine inspiration??...but that lacking i think i might be closing in on my next obsession.

Easter

Well...im currently eating my one kilo egg ^^...i love chocolate...and im doing a theology essay which i was gonna finish on thursday but...i procrastinated...surprise surprise.

so i hope this one will be better

i just need one good mark and then it will click...click...click...click...clicking is fun...

i got my exam timetable for june...why am i always talking about uni...this is saddening...so is spelling.

i've been watching farscape...and big bang theory...i am confused as to why i dislike science/math so much...i think im just lazy thus get bad marks thus dislike it.

we went to puppy school today. puppy liked it sooo much she met a dalmatian and they ran. and ran.. and ran....and then ran and ran...just ran...she was tired ^^.

demotivated

i don't understand. i've had a lot of sucky marks ranging from 0 well...quite a few 0's..to...wherever you think sucky marks end...however...i got back a theology assignment and i got 65%.........i was a little more than troubled. This is so terrible.

one of my maths teachers told me that i shouldn't wait for the answers to happen upon me. i should try to work out the problems and that i actually have to do something to get answers instead of waiting for divine inspiration or the like.

i am still quite impressed by how perceptive she was.

i thought i had figured out what 'work' meant by the end of year 12 but i don't think i've quite got it yet. this frustrates me.

Update: i love bells. They tinkle sweetly. ^^